Coffee

Just a quick update on the latest addition to my family. I’ve been so troubled by BZ the past few days that i didn’t have time to write about him – Coffee. That’s the latest rabbit to join our family. He’s a lionhead dwarf… about the same size as Pepsi (maybe slightly shorter) but he’s so darn timid! Pepsi’s been a big bully since he came… charges & chases him non-stop. Coffee is very traumatised by her.

We tried various means to get them to introduce themselves amicably but it didn’t work out. Noticed that Pepsi is a very individualistic rabbit. She likes to imitate Muah Chee but that’s about it. She was never chummy with Coke nor BZ… and now she’s bullying Coffee.

Sigh… i feel bad about sending her back… but now i know that it was my mistake to buy a rabbit that i wasn’t instinctively attracted to. Sorry Pepsi… i know you’re happy ‘cos u get to play in a garden but u can’t be a big bully at the playground… 🙁

Farewell to Bazhang

My mom woke me up at 6:50am this morning and told me that BZ passed away. I went down to see him and saw him lying down in a position he was sleeping in last night, but with his head resting on his litter pan. His body was stiff when we found him though he belly was warm. My mom and i dug a hole in our backyard next to TY and laid BZ to rest there.

I miss my BZ. He was like a big baby in his last days and would let me cradle and feed him. He was good boy… in fact he was the most obedient to commands – he understands what’s “sleep”, “drink water”, “go garden”, and “go home”. Smart huh?

It’s going to be tough training the other rabbits to be as obedient as him. Oh btw, Clown & i decided to bring Pepsi back to the petshop ‘cos she is very aggressive towards Coffee, and is quite ill-disciplined. I feel bad ‘cos i know she’s very happy at my place… but if she keeps attacking Coffee, who’s really timid, then i guess she’ll have to go. Feel guilty ‘cos i know i didn’t like her that much when i bought her… she was more of “company for Coke”.

Sigh… 3 rabbit deaths in 2 months. Bye bye Tangyuan, Coke, Bazhang….

I love Bazhang

BZ hasn’t been well for the past week. It started with a fussy appetite but knowing that he’s not well, we obliged him by giving him a different type of veg everyday – cabbage, carrot, parsley, celery, xiao bai cai… but as of last night, he has refused to eat anything we feed him. I saw him reaching for some of the plants in the garden so out of desperation, i plucked a few leaves and he ate them!

I was really quite happy… after all, better for him to take less nutritional food, than not to take food at all. However, since this morning, BZ has rejected all the different types of veg & garden plants i gave him. He’s on a liquid diet now – mixture of honey water + medicine & celery / apple / carrot juice.

I called the vet this afternoon to ask if there’s anything more i can do for him. The vet said no… he told me to just make BZ as comfortable as possible. Despite trying my best to control my tears, i couldn’t help but cry when i heard that. BZ is a well loved member of my family. My dad wanted to fly home from Dubai today but was asked to do more work there so he can’t come back. I’m not sure if my dad will get back to SG in time for BZ & him to meet one last time.

BZ was so tired tonight. He can’t stay awake for even 1 min before dozing off. He tried to eat some of the fern leaves i plucked for him but he only chewed twice before dozing off. Eventually, he gave up and surrendered himself to sleep. Sadly, BZ can’t seem to get a good rest… his sleep is interrupted and he can never sleep soundly for more than 3mins. My heart hurts so much when i see him so tired. I wonder if he’s waiting for my dad to come home ‘cos my dad took care of him the most.

I really love BZ a lot. It’s like watching a family member die and there’s nothing you can do to help. I wish i could take more leave or off days from work ‘cos i’m perpetually thinking and worrying about him. I prayed to God for a miracle but it doesn’t seem to be happening. When i tried to feed BZ (using a syringe) more juice just now, most of it just flowed down his chest.

I wish i could spend all day with BZ but i can’t get off from work tomorrow. I’m so scared i’ll come home and find that he’s passed away. I want to be with him right till the end. I want to pet his head & tell him that it’s ok and that death is just a place where he can finally get good rest. I don’t want BZ to die alone.

It’s been a long time since i got down to my knees to pray. But i prayed very hard for BZ. There’s nothing more the vet nor i can do. Only God can work a miracle and return his health. I really love BZ.