IM Junkie

I’m an Instant Messenger Junkie.  Yup!  No doubts about that.  I used to be obsessed about ICQ, then ICQ + Yahoo Messenger, then ICQ + Miranda, then ICQ + Gaim, then ICQ + MSN. 

After my office network viciously killed off all access to MSN (the program), i used www.ebuddy.com or www.iloveim.com or webmessenger.msn.com to log on.  But those URLs got blocked by the firewall too… so i searched & searched for a solution.  Finally, i found it.  Using www.ehobo.com, i could access sites that were blocked by my office network (prob. ‘cos the IP adds reflected were those of ehobo’s). 

This discovery was made yesterday only.  I was so proud of myself.  Felt such a sense of achievement… even if i was barely chatting with anyone, just knowing that MSN was there gave me such reassurance.  Haha.  That’s why i think i’m an IM junkie.  I’m addicted to instant messaging.  (In case u’re facing similar problems, www.ehobo.com works with webmessenger.msn.com.  The ebuddy & iloveim scripts don’t seem to work with ehobo.)

But for all my brilliance, i was caught by my boss yesterday.  Sigh.  He was searching for something on my PC & he clicked on the webmessenger window.  I didn’t attempt to cover up or anything.  Just acted cool & took over the mouse to open the window he was looking for.  My boss said, “So u’re UptownGal huh?”.  And i just mumbled a “Yeah” or something to that effect.  Didn’t close the window after that ‘cos i didn’t want to appear like i have this major guilty conscience?  Haha. 

Well, my boss didn’t say anything… maybe ‘cos it was after office hours… but hehe… since he didn’t say anything, i’ll just continue using it lor.  Wahaha… albeit as discreetly as i can.  😛

Sentimentalism Part 2

In my sentimental throes, i went in search of stuff i used to do a lot when i was in Junior College (JC).  I remember i used to chat a lot on mIRC and so i decided to log in again.  Sadly, the channel that i used to frequent, #temasekjc, isn’t there anymore.  I know #temasekjc was facing a lot of competition from another channel hosted by the current TJC students, #TJC, and it was just a matter of time before all we oldies stop visiting #temasekjc & everyone that still IRCs would switch over to #TJC.  BUT!  The channel #TJC isn’t there either!!  GASP!  Does it mean that after ICQ, mIRC is the next to go??

Out of curiousity, i visited the channel of the biggest rival in my day – #vjc.  WHOA!  It has disappeared too!  Sheesh… is this a sign that i’m way behind times or the youths of today have simply moved on to other forms of virtual interaction?  Sigh.

Talking about homepages.  U know, in the 90s, “frames” on webpages were all the rage.  If u wanted your website to be cool, it had to have “frames”.  If yours only had plain HTML & no “frames”, it meant that you were just not very hip, nor very techie in the IT arena.  But having “frames” today would be the most uncool, most old-fashioned thing u could ever choose to have on your webpage.  Sigh. 

I also did a search on blogs of Singaporean youngsters in general nowadays.  And i realised that all of them love having these really really tiny font sizes, and the text part would only take up a small column of their page.  The rest of the page would be filled with graphics or just left blank.  Furthermore, almost all the blogs of these kids had a cross-shaped cursor.  Really really strange phenomenon.  I wonder if anyone has ever done a study/thesis on trends or  what is/has been fashionable on the Internet in the past 10 years?

It’s kind of interesting how school kids will always have the same style, whether it’s in their dressing in daily life, or how they dress their blog.  Hehe.  If i were in NTU now, that would definitely be by FYP topic.  Hahaha.

Sentimentalism

Have u ever gone through stuff from like 10 years ago… and u realise u really miss the “good ol’ times”?  And while u’re missing the good ol’ times, do u wonder if who u are today, is the same person as who u thought u’ll be today, 10 years ago?

I got inspired to do a google search for myself on the Internet… and i found my old homepage.  That homepage was done in 1996 and last updated in 1998.  I still feel embarrassed about the cheesy graphics, hard to read text against the colourful backgrounds… and even my rant on the main page.  But i can never bear to can that site ‘cos whenever i go through the pages, heaps of wonderful memories come flooding back.  I think the happiest days of my life was from 1996 – 1998, when i could just have a lot of fun in school, get to know tons of new friends, not have to worry about work, and exams always work out for themselves.  Haha.

Life seemed so full of promise then.  That was a stage when i was on the brink of “growing up” so all the promises i made to myself when i was young… all the “when i grow up i’ll be…” or “when i grow up i’m going to”… they were supposed to materialise soon!

Unfortunately, things often do not turn out as planned.  I didn’t go to law school, still have minimal savings in my bank account, and well, life just isn’t quite as perfect as i thought it would be.  (Not that it’s bad.  Just not perfect.)  Reality is just so very very vastly different from idealism.

I wish i could return to my state of thinking then, and somehow turn the tap of idealism on in my life now.  I wish i could still be thoroughly optimistic & hopeful of life.  I wish i could… can i?