Material Girl in a Material World

When i was young, i had many expectations of things that were to come.  I had my own criteria for a “dream guy”, just as i had my own definition of a “dream job”. 

My dream guy was defined as such – he has to be a Christian, be of good Character (honest, with integrity, etc), we must be able to Communicate well, have compatible interest/hobbies, tall (175Cm at least), and is a Cantonese.

Ironically, the 5 bfs that i’ve met… well, not all were active believers, none were taller than 1.73m, and all were not Cantonese!  I’ve learnt various lessons from the various r/ships too – how sometimes u can be the “3rd party”, even if u were in the r/ship first… and how there’s no “better” person in a r/ship.  It’s just a matter of who’s more suitable.  I also learnt that what makes good bf material, is not the same as good husband material.

In going into a r/ship with someone, i think i’ve been very short-sighted.  I only considered how we would interact in a bgr kind of way… but i never looked at it from a longterm perspective.  And the thing about longterm r/ships… it’s often not just about the other person.  A marriage often involves the joining of 2 families.  Perhaps that’s how the saying 木门佩木门, 竹门佩竹们 came about.  (I’m not sure if i got the Chinese characters right but it means a wooden door matches a wooden door, a bamboo door matches a bamboo door). 

Issues like education & family background, though it may seem superficial & even materialistic to take into account, can make a greater impact on a r/ship than what people think.  I guess we are all partially a product of our environment… and the environment we’re exposed to the most is our family environment… so it shouldn’t be surprising that family background can be a make or break factor in a r/ship.

Same thing goes for education background.  I’m not saying that if a guy is less educated, it means he’s not good enough.  But some very smart people may end up taking a different education path ‘cos their attitude in life is different… and so while education itself may not be the differentiating factor, it is certainly indicative of a person’s personal belief & attitude.

I’ve griped about my new job quite a bit but actually, i’m very satisfied with it.  The reason why i whine so much about it is ‘cos i like it so much that i’m worried i’ll lose it.  I guess this may be the “perfect” job for me and it was certainly worth the wait for it!  But it’s never easy to hold out for something that’s most suitable isn’t it?  It’s not easy (at least for me) to hold out for God’s will to materialise in my life and unfortunately, i handle r/ships the same way. 

I create many “safety nets” for myself such that i may have already missed the person God has planned for me … but then again, if there’s someone that God planned for me, then how can i miss him right?  I’m prob. just lengthening both our wait.  Haha.  Now that’s a comforting thought!

Whatever the case, i’ve been doing a lot of thinking, soul searching and heart searching lately…now, it’s whether i have enough courage to do what i think is right.

Well, this post is going to be posted in invisible… by the time u read this, it means i have mustered enough courage.  Thank God.

Facing the Music

Are you the sort who will readily admit your mistake even if it’ll cause u a lot of embarrassment?  Or will u try to cover up, cross your fingers, and hope to get away with it?  Or do u try to live on with the mistake because u feel responsible for it?

The other day, while on the MRT, i sat next to this young fellow who was snoring away, deep in sleep.  Just as the train pulled away from Tanah Merah station, he suddenly jolted awake & asked me which station that was.  I told him, “Tanah Merah”, to which he muttered something like “Overshot!” & quickly rushed to get to the door.

The woman sitting opposite us was sniggering away and she made eye contact with me, as if she expected me to join in her laughter.  But i thought that young chap was very brave.  ‘Cos if it were me, if i suspect i missed the station i was supposed to alight at, i would just act nonchalant about it, walk cooly to the door, then get off & take the next train back.

So what sort of person are you?  Do you dare admit to your mistakes?  Or do force yourself to live on with it?

IM Junkie

I’m an Instant Messenger Junkie.  Yup!  No doubts about that.  I used to be obsessed about ICQ, then ICQ + Yahoo Messenger, then ICQ + Miranda, then ICQ + Gaim, then ICQ + MSN. 

After my office network viciously killed off all access to MSN (the program), i used www.ebuddy.com or www.iloveim.com or webmessenger.msn.com to log on.  But those URLs got blocked by the firewall too… so i searched & searched for a solution.  Finally, i found it.  Using www.ehobo.com, i could access sites that were blocked by my office network (prob. ‘cos the IP adds reflected were those of ehobo’s). 

This discovery was made yesterday only.  I was so proud of myself.  Felt such a sense of achievement… even if i was barely chatting with anyone, just knowing that MSN was there gave me such reassurance.  Haha.  That’s why i think i’m an IM junkie.  I’m addicted to instant messaging.  (In case u’re facing similar problems, www.ehobo.com works with webmessenger.msn.com.  The ebuddy & iloveim scripts don’t seem to work with ehobo.)

But for all my brilliance, i was caught by my boss yesterday.  Sigh.  He was searching for something on my PC & he clicked on the webmessenger window.  I didn’t attempt to cover up or anything.  Just acted cool & took over the mouse to open the window he was looking for.  My boss said, “So u’re UptownGal huh?”.  And i just mumbled a “Yeah” or something to that effect.  Didn’t close the window after that ‘cos i didn’t want to appear like i have this major guilty conscience?  Haha. 

Well, my boss didn’t say anything… maybe ‘cos it was after office hours… but hehe… since he didn’t say anything, i’ll just continue using it lor.  Wahaha… albeit as discreetly as i can.  😛

Sentimentalism Part 2

In my sentimental throes, i went in search of stuff i used to do a lot when i was in Junior College (JC).  I remember i used to chat a lot on mIRC and so i decided to log in again.  Sadly, the channel that i used to frequent, #temasekjc, isn’t there anymore.  I know #temasekjc was facing a lot of competition from another channel hosted by the current TJC students, #TJC, and it was just a matter of time before all we oldies stop visiting #temasekjc & everyone that still IRCs would switch over to #TJC.  BUT!  The channel #TJC isn’t there either!!  GASP!  Does it mean that after ICQ, mIRC is the next to go??

Out of curiousity, i visited the channel of the biggest rival in my day – #vjc.  WHOA!  It has disappeared too!  Sheesh… is this a sign that i’m way behind times or the youths of today have simply moved on to other forms of virtual interaction?  Sigh.

Talking about homepages.  U know, in the 90s, “frames” on webpages were all the rage.  If u wanted your website to be cool, it had to have “frames”.  If yours only had plain HTML & no “frames”, it meant that you were just not very hip, nor very techie in the IT arena.  But having “frames” today would be the most uncool, most old-fashioned thing u could ever choose to have on your webpage.  Sigh. 

I also did a search on blogs of Singaporean youngsters in general nowadays.  And i realised that all of them love having these really really tiny font sizes, and the text part would only take up a small column of their page.  The rest of the page would be filled with graphics or just left blank.  Furthermore, almost all the blogs of these kids had a cross-shaped cursor.  Really really strange phenomenon.  I wonder if anyone has ever done a study/thesis on trends or  what is/has been fashionable on the Internet in the past 10 years?

It’s kind of interesting how school kids will always have the same style, whether it’s in their dressing in daily life, or how they dress their blog.  Hehe.  If i were in NTU now, that would definitely be by FYP topic.  Hahaha.

Sentimentalism

Have u ever gone through stuff from like 10 years ago… and u realise u really miss the “good ol’ times”?  And while u’re missing the good ol’ times, do u wonder if who u are today, is the same person as who u thought u’ll be today, 10 years ago?

I got inspired to do a google search for myself on the Internet… and i found my old homepage.  That homepage was done in 1996 and last updated in 1998.  I still feel embarrassed about the cheesy graphics, hard to read text against the colourful backgrounds… and even my rant on the main page.  But i can never bear to can that site ‘cos whenever i go through the pages, heaps of wonderful memories come flooding back.  I think the happiest days of my life was from 1996 – 1998, when i could just have a lot of fun in school, get to know tons of new friends, not have to worry about work, and exams always work out for themselves.  Haha.

Life seemed so full of promise then.  That was a stage when i was on the brink of “growing up” so all the promises i made to myself when i was young… all the “when i grow up i’ll be…” or “when i grow up i’m going to”… they were supposed to materialise soon!

Unfortunately, things often do not turn out as planned.  I didn’t go to law school, still have minimal savings in my bank account, and well, life just isn’t quite as perfect as i thought it would be.  (Not that it’s bad.  Just not perfect.)  Reality is just so very very vastly different from idealism.

I wish i could return to my state of thinking then, and somehow turn the tap of idealism on in my life now.  I wish i could still be thoroughly optimistic & hopeful of life.  I wish i could… can i?

Expropriation

Insurance broker – Trade Credit & Political Risk. Huh?

A lot of people have asked what exactly is the work i do. I’m not surprised ‘cos even though i specialised in Insurance for my university studies, i’ve never heard about Trade Credit & Political Risk insurance till just before i found this job. Trade Credit Ins. basically covers things like insolvency risks of debtors… and Political Risk Ins. (which is what i’m focusing on) covers risks such as expropriation / nationalisation of assets by a foreign government, expropriation of funds, property damage arising form political violence / war/civil war / terrorism, currency inconvertibility risks, etc.

Let me give u (in layman’s terms) an e.g. of what expropriation is. Last night, my mom borrowed my suitcase to pack her stuff for her holiday in Yunnnan. Although the suitcase was rightfully mine, my mom started to “nationalise” it by sticking stickers with her name all over the suitcase. Given that she didn’t outright make a claim to say the suitcase was now hers, from her actions alone, we can conclude that it’s a form of creeping expropriation.

So there you have it. A classic case of what expropriation is.

End of a Dynasty?

Whenever i watch those old B-grade HK movies on TV that feature nightclub hostesses, they always wear those pompous gowns for work.  But given that a lot of these movies were filmed in the early ’90s, i’ve always wondered if those hostesses (aka bargirls) still wore those type of gowns.

Answer is – they do!!  Wahahahaha.  Last night, a group of friends & i went to Dynasty Nightclub (not sure if that’s the “official” name) for KTV.  Yeah… gals can go in too.. haha.  The sound system’s really good… and they have these fantastic screens in the rooms – 3 screens in fact!  2 screens would show the MTV of the songs with lyrics so you can sing along, and the middle screen would show the menu for song selection.  The wireless microphones were really good too.  Good pickup, clear, minimal feedback – i would say the sound system was the best in any KTV place i’ve been to.  The room was also tastefully decorated (not cheap nor sleazy looking in terms of decor!), and the ventilation was really good.  There was hardly any smell of leftover smoke in the room.  Only drawback was that the air-conditioning was freezing cold!

Halfway through our KTV session, the guys wanted to watch soccer so we got someone to help switch 1 of the TV screens to show the match (England vs. Marcedonia), while the other screen continued to play MTVs for the rest of us to sing.  Impressive hor??

But i digress.  Back to the bargirls.  Hehe.  Almost all the girls i saw were wearing long gowns that were kind of old-fashioned.  Hehe.  I was thinking, perhaps they need to be in these really formal gowns to create some sort of fantasy world for sleazy businessmen who frequent these sort of seedy establishments for their “services”?  But for goodness’ sake… update your fashion sense lah!  Aiyoh!

Well, i didn’t see much sleazy action taking place though.  There was a room opp. the aisle where the sleazy patrons & the girls were dancing some sort of disco dance… but other than that, business seemed pretty poor.  Hostesses who weren’t entertaining guests spent their time chatting & playing pool (i must say that seeing people wearing retro “prom dresses” and playing pool was really strange) in the “common area” just outside the toilets. 

From what i saw, all the bargirls were from China?  They looked like they were in their mid to late 20s.  Some were not bad looking, others, not so good… there was even 1 who was quite overweight… not exactly what you would imagine a stero-typical hostess to be.  Haha.  But yeah business must’ve been really really bad.  When i went to the restroom about 12:40am, i saw 2 bargirls change out of their gowns to go home.  Guess that’s why Dynasty allows the general public to book their rooms for KTV sessions for super cheap rates – $5/room/hr during offpeak (i.e. during the afternoons), and $10/room/hr during peak hours (i.e. at night).  Each of us had to buy a compulsory drink at the door for $5… but that’s hardly anything considering what one would pay to go to a normal non-sleazy KTV!!

So there you have it.  I’ve finally gotten my wish to visit one of these sleazy nightclubs, only to find that it’s not that sleazy.  Maybe it’s Dynasty, or maybe it’s just Singapore… haha.  Whatever the case, if biz doesn’t pick up, i wouldn’t be surprised if it’ll soon be the end of Dynasty.

The Evil Disciple

Yippee!!  Survived my 6th week at work.  True enough, things are getting better, if only ‘cos i’m starting to figure my way around & learning to make decisions & take charge of my work.

Anyway, this post isn’t about that.  This post is about the story of an Evil Disciple, Jojo.  A few years ago, there was this disciple in the sect of Anyhow-Insure-Anything that was very condemned by one of the elders of the sect, Elder PK.  However, after Elder PK went up to the mountains to 避馆休练, the sect leader who took over, KL & his righthand (wo)man, Mao showed her a lot of favour.  Especially Mao.  She told everyone that she lurved Jojo because the latter was very kuai (Chinese for obedient).  Not only did Mao heap tons of praise on Jojo during each appraisal, Mao also helped Jojo get rid of all the other disciples that were preferred by the sect elder PK. 

Flashback to present day.  Jojo decided to defect to another sect, Golden Egg, because she was lured over with promises of great riches & an easy time.  Sad to say, Jojo must’ve realised that without the backing of Mao, she wasn’t going to have an easy time at Golden Egg.  So she insidiously plotted her return.  She told another ex-disciple that if she ever returned to Anyhow-Insure-Anything, it would have to be in Mao’s position.  

Unknown to Mao, the sect leader, KL, also felt that it was time that Mao was done away with… so KL asked Jojo to come back… and i’m sure Jojo laid down her terms… and now, Mao has been kicked back to another obscure section of the Anyhow-Insure-Anything… and Jojo will be taking her place!  Perhaps this is what one would call retribution for Mao… for all the times she plotted against the other disciples so that her favourite Jojo would gain favour.  But i don’t think many have realised that Jojo was as evil as she is!  Tsk tsk….

Muah Chee’s 1st Shower

My dad gave Muah Chee his first shower last Sat.  He was quite petrified by it… haha… laid really still while he was being soaped… and when my dad was washing away the soap, he could take it no longer & started hopping around the shower stall.  Haha.  Best part is that – like father like son – he also gave me the same pleading look!  Haha. 

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Pinky seems to be saying, “u too, daddy?”

 

 

 

Hehe.  😛 

Muah Chee’s 1st Shower

My dad gave Muah Chee his first shower last Sat.  He was quite petrified by it… haha… laid really still while he was being soaped… and when my dad was washing away the soap, he could take it no longer & started hopping around the shower stall.  Haha.  Best part is that – like father like son – he also gave me the same pleading look!  Haha. 

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Pinky seems to be saying, “u too, daddy?”

 

 

 

Hehe.  😛