10 Years Too Late

First thing i did when i got back from Malacca was to log onto my blog, and then check my email.  Saw that i had a new message on friendster and so i logged on to check.  Guess who the message was from?  Haha.  It was from ‘03‘.  I was sorta surprised since it’s been 3 months since we bumped into each other at the Bellini Room.  To sum it up, 03 asked how i was, and if i were free to meet up for drinks.  Haha. 

Sure i’m free, and am curious to see what he’s up to.  Unfortunately, this may have come 10 years (and 10 kilos 😛 ) too late.  Hahaha.

End of my Tether

I just lost it.  Blew up.  This blog was set up for me to bitch, to whine, and to let out all my frustrations.  It’s also a platform for me to share happy, sad and comical things that happen in my often overly “dramatic” life with close friends like Iceman, Azure, Zounds, Katrine, and some church friends.  It was NOT set up for ex-bfs to keep track of my life.  That was one of the main reason this blog was password-protected quite a bit at one stage.  ‘Cos i am NOT comfortable with silent readers delving into my life, then forcing their unwanted concern on me.

How does one impose unwanted concern?  That is when one gets all emotional, acts like the victim, starts messaging me out of the blue about being upset and getting all philosophically depressed, and repeatedly badgers me with his wish to “be friends”.  After which i would receive apologetic messages / sms-es, etc, about the behaviour, AND coupled with his friend’s genuine concern for him that somehow becomes my problem too?

ENOUGH!  Really.  ENOUGH already!  In case anyone is wondering, this isn’t a problem with me ok?  As Zounds said… if it can’t be a clean break, it’ll have to be an ugly one.  I’m friends with all my ex-bfs and that’s ‘cos everything was always amicable, and no one harassed the other party.  Hassling leaves a very bad aftertaste.  And when my parents, whom i often keep in the dark about my problems, also observe that something’s not right, u can jolly well bet your last dollar the problem doesn’t lie with me.

So there.  That’s how i feel.  It’s not like i’m the type who cannot maintain friendships when the r/ship doesn’t work out.  Hey, i would even proudly say that i’m good friends now with a cassanova who tried to bed me but obviously didn’t succeed.  That’s ‘cos i can detach myself from the situation and deal with matters with a logical mindset.  However, i cannot deal with people who come to me with puppy-dog sadness.  THAT is precisely the thing that causes the friendship to be impossible.

Forgive my unkindness.

Irreplaceable

 

Irreplaceable lyrics
To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left

Mmmm to the left, to the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet, that’s my stuff
Yes, if I bought it, baby, please don’t touch (don’t touch)

And keep talking that mess, thats fine
Could you walk and talk, at the same time?
And it’s my name thats on that jag
So go move your bags, let me call you a cab

Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I’m such a fool, talking ’bout
How I’ll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know ’bout me
You must not know ’bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he’ll be here in a minute (baby)

You must not know ’bout me
You must not know ’bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don’t you ever for a second get to thinkin’
You’re irreplaceable

So go ahead and get gone
Call up that chick, and see if she’s home
Oops I bet you thought, that I didn’t know
What did you think
I was putting you out for?

Because you wasn’t true
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby, drop them keys
Hurry up, before your taxi leaves

Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I’m such a fool, talking ’bout
How I’ll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know ’bout me
You must not know ’bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he’ll be here in a minute (baby)

You must not know ’bout me
You must not know ’bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don’t you ever for a second get to thinkin’
You’re irreplaceable (irreplaceable)

So since I’m not your everything (irreplaceable)
How about I’ll be nothing (nothing), Nothing at all to you (nothing, nothing)
Baby I won’t shed a tear for you (I won’t shed a tear for you)
I won’t lose a wink of sleep (a wink of sleep)
‘Cause the truth of the matter is (truth is)
Replacing you is so easy

To the left, to the left.
To the left, to the left.
Mmmmm To the left, to the left.
Everything you own in the box to the left
To the left, to the left.
Don’t you ever for a second get to thinking
You’re irreplaceable

You must not know ’bout me
You must not know ’bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he’ll be here in a minute (baby)

You must not know ’bout me
You must not know ’bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don’t you ever for a second get to thinkin’

You must not know ’bout me (baby)
You must not know ’bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he’ll be here in a minute

You can pack all your bags we’re finished (you must not know ’bout me)
‘Cause you made your bed now lay in it (you must not know ’bout me)
I could have another you by tomorrow
Don’t you ever for a second get to thinkin’
You’re irreplaceable

Slap in the Face

Got a wedding invitation in my email today.  Mr. Ego is finally getting married to his gf.  Good for him.  Not that i still have any interest in this person… i mean I backed away from the knotty situation we were in 5 years ago, maintained a cordial albeit superficial “friendship” with the idiot, and now what?  They want me to contribute an angpow to their wedding budget?  Crazy.

I don’t know whether to laugh or to cry.  Maybe i’m too good at all this “maintaining cordial relationships” crap.  No one bothers to ask for my take on things anyway.  Have you ever tried working with your ex, and his ex?  HA! 

Once upon a time, i might’ve just cried about this.  Nowadays, *yawn*, pardon me just rolling my eyes.  Pleaze… just get out of my elite uncaring eyelashes.

Weekend Roundup

Had a real busy weekend:

Sat – attended Little Matchgal’s wedding.  Congrats gal!!  We’re all very happy for you.  Her husband and her look really good together.  Super compatible.  🙂

Sun – overslept and missed church.  Throat infection flared up again (for the 3rd weekend since CNY) and had fever.  Took med, felt better, and hung out with “relatively new friends”.  Was fun.  I like the company.

Mon – crappy start to the day.  Lymph nodes swollen ‘cos of the throat infection.  Doc said it was a good thing ‘cos it’s a sign that my body’s fighting the infection.  Right… Got more meds from the doc and went back to work.  Much to be done.  Found out that Banker has tendered his resignation.  Sigh.  This is not good… i’ll be taking over all the new deals that were originally under his portfolio.  But then again… career wise… maybe it’s not a bad thing since expanded jobscope = more chances to perform = more opportunities to shine?

Am really looking forward to the Malacca trip this weekend.  Now i just need to convince my parents that it’s as fantastic as i think it’ll be…

Don’t Fix It – Just Upgrade

Was with Iceman at Suntec last night when we saw people leaving the IT show with packages and packages of spoils.  Iceman was laughing at a chap who bought a 19″ flat screen monitor.  What’s so funny about that huh?  I’m still using a 17″ Sony Multiscan E200 (that’s a CRT btw, for folks who don’t remember what old monitors used to look like) ok!  I mean, what’s not broken don’t fix it!  I’m totally happy with my good ol’s monitor that has served me faithfully for the past few years!

That said, i may be slapping myself in the face since i’m wont to change to newer handphone models every 6 months (the N73 has broken the 3-6 months curse and lasted 7 months to date!  Woohoo!)

Ok.  What’s my point in all this?  I would say, sometimes, when you’re comfortable with something, you might prefer not to move out of your comfort zone.  Remaining status quo in that sense, might be a preferred choice.  However, if you’ve sussed out the specs of the new model and it seems to be better than the current product (hp, monitor, car, whatever) you’re using, perhaps, it’s worth the upgrading risk.