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Firstfruit

Someone told someone who shared with me a long time ago that, when you put God first, everything else will fall in place. This wasn’t a statement to comfort in difficult times but a reminder, a warning, in good times. Hearing the different trials and thanksgiving various people experienced in 2018, I could at times […]

Farewell 2018

Pain, worthlessness, grief, self-harm; too many dark moments have plagued 2018. I truly wish for a better tomorrow in 2019.

I Wished…

I was a bigger part of your consciousness.  

Clingy

I died. Got revived. And I woke up a different person. Scarred. Despairing. Looking forward to His second coming.   If I wasn’t drowning, I wouldn’t cling on so hard.

Surrender

Today I read that ‘surrender’ is a battle term. And I am battling a lot of things. My fears, my doubts, my inadequacies, my self-worth. And I realise it’s harder to surrender to God one’s disappointments and doubts than to surrender one’s joy and dreams. At least it is for me. I think it’s logical […]

Dylan

Dylan was a friend from dance. On 7 Ang 2018, Dylan decided to leave us at the very young age of 27. The news came as a great shock because whenever I think of Dylan, the image of someone with a big smile would pop into my mind. His family shared that he had been […]

Thorn

Maybe the lesson is to not focus on the thorn but to focus on His Grace and one day the tears will go away.

Protected: Beijing, June 2018

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Thirty-Nine

I thought I lost the ability to cry; But only you could coax a tear from my eye. I think I’m strong, at least I try. But the more I see, the more my heart dies. I try to read between the lines, I wished you would tell me everything is fine. I don’t know […]

Ah Lian

The older i am, the more ah lian i become. Went to get a third pair of ear holes pierced today. I wondered why and the only conclusion i arrived at was the older i am, the less i care about what people think of me. So that brings my inner lian to the surface. […]




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