Have u ever felt invisible before? Like u’re with a group of people but they don’t seem to notice anything about u? Things u say don’t seem to register? Did no one hear what u say? Did no one see a glaring change in your appearance? Or perhaps no one cares?
It used to hurt me to be invisible. But over time, i’ve become accustomed to it. Maybe it’s ‘cos i no longer consider these people as “friends”. They’re more like acquaintances. With the rare exception of perhaps 2 guys in the group, i feel nothing for the rest of the people. They are no different from the strangers i meet on the street.
One of the 2 guys that i still consider friends told me that he’s concerned about how i’ve decided to stop participating in group activities. He said it was important to have a network / support group of friends with the same belief system. I can only muster a cynical smile. If my non-believing friends show more concern and appreciation for who i am, and more patience for my shortcomings, then why do i want to torture myself by hanging out with a group of people with whom i rank lowest in their priority list? Why would i want to subject myself to obliging them whenever they want to do something, knowing they would not place any significance to what i want to do?
Time is precious, and i’ll rather spend it with people who hear and see me.
sometimes people just do that to make you feel bad. Don’t bother – because if that is their mentality, then they are not worth it to begin with.