A couple of Saturdays so, we had a mock JnJ at the studio. I felt stressed as usual because I couldn’t remember what a JnJ would be like – the last real JnJ I took part in was in Jul 2025. After the prelims, a sense of relief washed over me.
The difference between this relief and previous cases was I wasn’t merely glad that it was over. Instead, I was like… Oh… So this is what a JnJ feels like? The actual event wasn’t that terrifying actually.
The best analogy I can think of is a rollercoaster. The thought of going on one can be scary but during the ride itself… It’s really no big deal.
I guess that’s what Dr Alla meant regarding secondary fear.
I think I’ll be ok from now on.
사람들은 나이가 들수록 옛 친구들과 다시 연락하고 싶어 하나요?
Senior from hall reached out on Instagram and suggested meeting up. Second hall senior to do so in the past 4 months.
Initially felt a little unsure since I haven’t seen this senior since graduating! But then again, why not?
I’ve not dropped my phone since buying it in August last year but then once I dropped it at the airport this week, I suddenly dropped it another 2 times. Worst thing is, I don’t even know how it landed on the floor this morning!
Had a second session with Dr Alla this morning. Penning down my takeaways so I won’t forget…
• Comp – focus on the process and not the result.
• It’s the process of dance that’s fun. Not the result.
• Changing mental movie. Mental exercise first before physical exercise.
• Why do people do comps? It’s 2 similar levelled people co-creating something.
• Each dance just needs to be slightly better than the last one.
• My mental movie –> pin my bib – breath (4 counts in, 6 counts out) –> line up (say to myself: “it’s about the process, not the result”) –> on the floor, rotate partner (let’s just make this dance better than the last one).
Realisation:
• There is no “good” dance. It is not an absolute value.
• Slow down breathing – 4 counts in, 6 counts out.
• https://www.cci.health.wa.gov.au/Resources/Looking-After-Yourself/Other-Resources
21 March 2025. Milestone! Tried my first counselling session today. I really wanted to resolve my performance anxiety during JnJs and since no matter how hard I’ve tried I couldn’t “mind over matter” it, I decided to give counselling a try. It was a good 1 hr session even though it was supposed to be for 50 min. I like my doc, Dr Alla.
Biggest takeaway (and I’m writing it here because I’m afraid I’ll forget) is, dance doesn’t define me as a person. My person defines my dance.
Finally I think I can answer this question. I’m a graceful dancer but not as precise as ballerinas. I like the feeling of floating and going with the flow; perhaps reflective of how I am in life – I like peace with no big excitement or disappointments.
편하게 춤추기 좋겠다.
I think this is likely to be my last post of 2024. Would have liked to post more regularly but these days (compared to 20 years ago), I don’t use the laptop for personal reasons much… and I really hate writing long posts on the hp.
Just concluded my last Korea trip of the year! Visited Korea an unbelievable 6 times this year.
March – visited with global head. (Work)
April – Busan holiday + Korea Open (Personal)
June – Korea Language Immersion Programme (Personal)
Early September – visit with colleague from London (Work)
Late September – Westival (Personal)
December – Roy Kim’s concert (Personal)
To be fair, the trip in Dec wasn’t exactly planned and in Sep, I told my colleagues that I wouldn’t be back till next year. What I didn’t expect was that Roy Kim would launch an international fan club, which I joined, and that allowed me to buy a ticket to his year-end concert through the fan club pre-sale. I really wanted to go for his concert in 2023 but didn’t manage to get a ticket – they were sold out in 3 min. (The Interpark website is amazing for ticket sales. Way better than Sistic or Ticketmaster but that’s another story on its own).
So while I was in Seoul last week, I was wondering how did my favourite holiday destination change from Hong Kong to Seoul? I asked myself what did I like about HK that has changed? These were the thoughts that popped into my head:
People – I used to like the vibe and culture in HK. The people had this hunger and drive about them and I loved the energy.
Music – I used to love Cantopop. Well, I still like it but my favourite artistes aren’t as active as before… Sammi Cheng, Miriam Yeung, Hacken Lee, Andy Hui (well, I don’t really like him anymore after his affair). The newer singers don’t inspire me at all.
Movies – It’s shocking how the blockbusters are still headlined by the same actors that I watched 20 years ago. While I enjoy seeing my favourites on screen still (Louis Koo, Andy Lau, Nicholas Tse)… it’s kind of sad that there’s no new blood that’s as big as these people?
I think if my salary allowed it 15-20 years ago, I would have visited HK 2-3 times a year as well. However, the circumstances didn’t allow it then and now HK just seems a little “lost” to me. I still have one thing on my bucket list though – I want to attend a Sammi Cheng concert in HK. Hopefully I’ll get to do this in 2025.
There are a lot of things I learnt this year and the one thing I want to work on (on myself) is to take time in doing things. A peer commented in my 360deg feedback that I tend to be anxious to get things done as efficiently and quickly as possible but taking a bit more time before responding to any issues would be better. I think that is good feedback so I’m forcing myself to slow down a little these days.
Ideally I would be able to post something once a week, if not at least once a month. But we’ll see. 🙂
Peace out and may the rest of 2024 bring peace and joy to all.
조금만 수정하면 더 자연스러워요:
“지난 2주 동안 한국에 있었어요. 왜냐하면 학원의 Cultural Immersion Program에 참여했어요. 매일 아침에 3시간 반 수업을 들었어요. 그리고 오후에 회사에 다녔어요. 너무 바빴지만 재미있었어요.”
아주 바쁜 시간을 보냈네요! 새로운 경험을 통해 많은 것을 배웠을 것 같아요.
At episode 19/24 of this K drama. Realised I like people who are considerate. Don’t think that’s a typical main trait people cite when asked about what sort of people they like? Well, that’s a main one for me. For sure.
사실 지난 주의 수업이 조금 이상했어요. 이유가 모르지만 선생님 ‘설날’의 발음 was [설날] instead of [설랄]. I think it was Joey who asked about it then 선생님 explained it’s [설랄]. 그런데 우리 같이 소리로 읽을때 선생님 still used [설날].
I’m fussy. ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
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