Plan for May

“Cannot confirm, “Cannot guarantee”,
What does this say about you and me.
Two steps forward, one step back,
Time to give up? Or just a little setback.
I’ll pass on scheduled film ed,
I can read the paperback.
Time for me to lay off,
I shall try to not be soft.
Birdland will be passe,
And that’s the plan for May.

Keeping Things in Perspective

Really tired.  Had 2 late nights in a row this weekend.  Am also saddened by the passing of a deeply respected church elder last Thursday.  I always remember him as the only person who has ever talked to my dad about God and my dad did not blow his top.

Uncle Fred was a kind and gentle spirit that way.  The sincerity of his words and his earnest concern for everyone was always apparent in his actions.  During the funeral service today, many people shared about the different ways he touched their lives.

Came home about 5ish in the evening and took a nap.  Woke up when my parents were going for dinner but decided not to join them ‘cos i’m still rather full from this afternoon and… am really really tired.

Feeling a little downtrodden as well.  Times like these, i wished i could hit the fastforward button on the remote.

Ok.  I need to keep things in perspective and not let every minor thing get to me. 

Sidetracking a little, the speaker at the funeral service today said that we need to remember to WALK through the valley of the shadow of death.  If we dwell in it, of course we’ll be scared!  But just remember to keep walking ‘cos God walks with us.

Psalm 23
A psalm of David.

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
       he leads me beside quiet waters,

3 he restores my soul.
       He guides me in paths of righteousness
       for his name’s sake.

4 Even though I walk
       through the valley of the shadow of death, [a]
       I will fear no evil,
       for you are with me;
       your rod and your staff,
       they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
       in the presence of my enemies.
       You anoint my head with oil;
       my cup overflows.

6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
       all the days of my life,
       and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
       forever.

Amen to that.

Fear of the Unknown

I have a fear of the unknown.  Not for things that go bump in the night (i would bump them off!), but fear of holding any expectations of a person because the more hope you invest, the more you risk.

A few people asked me recently if i was worried that he might be seeing some other girl.  My answer is no.  If anything, i’m the one who might see other people.  The issue i see however, is that a guy approaching 29 might want to go full speed on his career ‘cos guys in their 30s can easily get a younger gal. 

However, a gal at 28 tends to be hesitant about committing to a person ‘cos gals in their 30s aren’t exactly high in demand so u wouldn’t want to make a mistake in your choice of a guy.  If you notice, gals in their 30s usually end up with guys who are way older… ‘cos the attraction of a gal in her 30s is her maturity and perhaps career stability.

And that’s life i suppose.

Saw an ex-bf give out wedding invitations today.  Seems like almost all our peers are invited – except me.  It was surreal the way everyone was holding an invitation card and talking about it… and i was just there… invisible?  Kind of expected it since i was the ousted party.  It’s sad when u want to wish a friend well… but circumstances dictate otherwise.

And people wonder why i invest my time and effort in techie gadgets.  At least the tech specs are made known to the public.

Someday We’ll Know

Love this song by New Radicals.

 

 

90 miles outside chicago
Can’t stop driving
I don’t know why
So many questions
I need an answer
Two years later
You’re still on my mind

Whatever happened to emilia earhart
Who holds the stars up in the sky
Is true love once in a lifetime
Did the captain of the titanic cry

Chorus:
Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you

Does anybody know the way to atlantis
Or what the wind says when she cries
I’m speeding by the place where I met you
For the 97th time tonight
(chorus)

Someday we’ll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I’ll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you’ll know
That I was the one for you

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren’t you here with me?
(chorus)

Someday we’ll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I’ll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you’ll know
That I was the one for you

Someday We’ll Know

Love this song by New Radicals.

 

 

90 miles outside chicago
Can’t stop driving
I don’t know why
So many questions
I need an answer
Two years later
You’re still on my mind

Whatever happened to emilia earhart
Who holds the stars up in the sky
Is true love once in a lifetime
Did the captain of the titanic cry

Chorus:
Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you

Does anybody know the way to atlantis
Or what the wind says when she cries
I’m speeding by the place where I met you
For the 97th time tonight
(chorus)

Someday we’ll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I’ll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you’ll know
That I was the one for you

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren’t you here with me?
(chorus)

Someday we’ll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I’ll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you’ll know
That I was the one for you

Lazy Saturday

Today is my blogging day.  It’s the kind of day when i just want to stay home, sort out my thoughts, and pen down stuff that happened over the past week… though i do realise that despite my “busy-ness”, i managed to blog everyday during the past week!  *Pats self on back*.

Perhaps it’s ‘cos i’ve worked late most days and hence i didn’t really go out much… so had time to come home and blah all the stuff i wanted to say online.

It’s been a busy week.. but a happy week, career wise.  As Iceman said, this is really quite a dream job of sorts for me… heh… no complaints really.  🙂  (If only my would boss agree to help me get season parking.  I mean, after all the times i helped him fix his stupid laptop, u would think he would not say he was being biased if he helped me lor!  :P)

So here i am… cup of Vietnamese coffee next to me, Hilda on my lap, trying to verbalise my rambling thoughts.  Had an intense craving to “drink to my heart’s content” last night but it didn’t really happen.  Think i ate too much during the day – coffees, curry puff, kuehs, nasi padang…. didn’t have much space left in my stomach.  Yeah… nowadays, i drink better on an empty stomach.  Haha.

I’ve been told a couple of things (about me) recently:

  1. I MM too much.
  2. I am overly defensive in the way i communicate with someone in particular
  3. I need to make sure that i’m not taken as a companion of convenience.
  4. I need to know what i want.

Thinking through all that has been said, i know the first 2 points are very true.  Sigh.  As for the 3rd point… hmm… i don’t think so lah.  A friend of convenience would not change his plans to accomodate the “convenient” person right?  ‘Cos that just would not be very convenient indeed.  Heh.  As for the last point… well, i still don’t know.

Regardless (please don’t EVER use IRregardless), that’s all 10 days old stuff.  We shall see what happens… 11:55pm tonight onwards.

Numbers Game

A past client referred his friend to us to obtain political risk insurance.  The friend called my boss and made arrangements to come to our office for a chat.  As i was in the restroom when he arrived, my boss brought him to the meeting room first. 

When i got to the meeting room about 5 min later, the potential client suddenly said, “Got conflict of interest.  I know her.”

I looked at the guy and found him extremely familiar… but just couldn’t place where i knew him from.  “Er… yeah… you look familiar.”

He then said, “U mean u don’t recognise me?”. 

My mind raced through all the different groups of people i know – church, salsa, cheonging friends…

The potential client looked at my boss and said, “She’s my cousin-in-law.”

“U’re A’s husband!” i exclaimed.

Ah… mystery solved… though still quite paiseh lah.   But what to do when i have like 30+ cousins on my dad’s side alone?  Heh.

I Need An Ass

Met a colleague that i got to know during the Vietnam trip at the lift lobby today.

Colleague: Wah!  U look very thin in office clothes leh.

Me: Huh?  I looked very fat in Vietnam meh?

Colleague: No lah.  But u were wearing shorts mah.  Got more bum lor.

Thanks lor.  I know i got no ass also no need like that what.  Sigh.

Lima Syndrome

The Lima syndrome is the opposite of the Stockholm syndrome.  Rather than the captives becoming submissive, the Lima Syndrome is when captors exhibit signs of becoming more sympathetic to the plight and needs of their hostages.

HD will be back on Sat night.  ETA 11:55pm.  Guess Hilda will be going home soon.  Sigh.  I miss Hilda already.  Sigh.  Bye bye Hilda.

Season Parking

Ok.  This is a public announcement.  I need help getting season parking at Raffles Place.  After enjoying 1.5 weeks of free parking at Equity Plaza courtesy of HD, now i think i want to drive to work!  The convenience is unbelievable.  😛

The problem is, most of the buildings at Raffles Place only allow tenants to buy season parking.  So i got my office’s admin manager to help me check at Clifford Centre (did u know that it’s also owned by SingLand??) but they had no more lots left.  The only one available, and that was the last lot too, was at Golden Shoe at a real hefty price of $290/mth.  Way out of my budget.  Don’t think i’ll pay anything more than $250-260/mth.

I checked with Equity Plaza too – same story.  Need to be tenant.  Sigh.

So if anyone knows how i can get a reasonably priced (by my standards ya?) season parking near SingLand Tower, please let me know!  Greatly appreciated!!