DISC

Have u ever taken a DISC personality test before? It’s supposed to help you understand your personality better, w.r.t your job function, hence helping u figure out if u have a good job fit or not. DISC stands for Dominance, Influence, Steadiness, and Conscientiousness. Click here if u want to know more about DISC.

I remember taking a DISC test before when i was still working with AIA. I was high I, high C, middle D & low S. Heh. Recently, i had the opportunity to take another DISC test again when i went for an interview with AAA (Alexandra). They offered me the job but i declined their offer.

Today, at the interview with AAA (Martin Rd), my test results were passed over to the interviewer and he said that it shows that i’m someone who’s easily bored. Hehe. That’s very true. I have very short attention span when it comes to whatever job i’m in. The minute i learn all the ropes, i get bored and start looking for another job. I can’t even fathom how i managed to stay all of 2 years 9 months in AIA before. Perhaps i was too busy then to look for a new job. Heh.

Sigh. I’m still rather traumatised about my bad phone conversation with B.Mac from Eon. But as azure said… it it’s meant to be, it will be. Sigh.

Waiting Game

I have bad vibes about the job with Eon. What happened this morning was this:

I called B.Mac but he didn’t answer the phone. So i sent an sms saying that i’m still very keen on the job after going through the notes he gave me, as well as checking out the miga.org website.

B.Mac replied that he’s glad that i find the stuff interesting and he’ll get back to me in a few days’ time.

I then called him again but he didn’t answer.

He was on the line apparently and returned my call soon after. I said i wanted to clarify if there were 2 positions available, as mentioned by Rafi (the ED) the last time, or only 1 opening? B.Mac said there was only 1 opening – which means that both the other candidate and me are competing for the same post. Damn. The conversation then turned awkward and B.Mac went like, “So how was your weekend?” I told him that it was busy at the showflat over the weekend but i managed to read the notes in between the stuff i had to do. Conversation then ran dry. Very dry. And i ended the call by saying, “So i guess i’ll be hearing from you in a few days?” And B.Mac was like, “yes”.

Bad vibes. Bleah. Not a good way to gain affinity with your potential employer. Sigh.

Went for an inteview with AAA in the evening. It’s a biz development position. I’m OK with the jobscope… not like jumping over the moon but if the offer is good, i guess i might consider. It’s going to take quite a bit to get me out of my current job, unless i’m really interested in the jobscope ‘cos i have a very easy life at my current co. Heh. I work very few hours a week, though weekends are kinda intensive.

Ouch… my right elbow hurts. Great!!! I scraped it and i have no idea how i scraped it!!! Sheesh! I amaze myself sometimes… argh… gotta go wash it….

Forgiveness

A couple of days ago, i met up with some secondary school friends for dinner. One of them said to me that one of her colleagues knows my ex-bf. I was like, er, which ex-bf? After i figured out which ex-bf she was referring to, i told her that he was getting married soon and we’re actually ok friends. But while i no longer have feelings for him, i definitely still have “feelings” for his wife-to-be!

Speak of the devil. I saw her in church today ‘cos she was doing Lord’s Supper duty. I felt such conflict & “un-peace” in my heart. At that moment, i knew that i have yet to forgive her for being a 3rd party. I guess if there’s anyone i still hatred & harbour unforgiveness towards, it’s her.

I asked myself – given that they’re getting married now, perhaps she was right to be the 3rd party ‘cos they’re meant to be together? But then again, just ‘cos u feel that someone ought to rightfully be with you, does that give u the right to be the bitch? It’s not something i can accept. To me, relationships are very clear cut. There is a right & wrong to things and to place your own selfish desires above moral rights & wrongs is, just plain wrong.

Anyhow, i felt very torn this morning. After all, we were about to have the Lord’s Supper & what does the Lord’s Supper represent? It’s a commemoration of Jesus’ 2nd coming. When we break bread, it symbolises his body that was broken. He died for our sins. He died for mine, as well as hers. Who am i to pass judgement on her? I may be the aggrieved, but i’m only the plaintiff. Not the judge.

Once upon a time, i hated her so much that i wished she’ll never accept Christ. I hoped thus ‘cos i wanted her to burn in hell. Yeap. I’m that evil. To me, that’s the worst “revenge” possible. But i guess Jesus’ love encompasses all our mistakes in life. Thank God for that or i’ll probably be burning too.

Someone once told me that it’s possible to forgive, but not forget. I don’t know about that man. I’m still on the first step.

Scar-face Pinky

Pinky had a very bad week this past week. A couple of days ago, he felt so insulted ‘cos an ignorant colleague of mine pointed to his photo and went, “Is that a chinchilla?”. Of ‘cos when Pinky got to know about it, he was really pissed. “Simi chinchilla? Your colleague’s eyes so lousy, better scratch them out!” Pinky said to me.

Then last night, my dad locked the other bunnies up and he let Horlicks & Pinky run along the side of my house. His purpose was to let Horlicks & Pinky continue to socialise with the others so they won’t be alienated. But when i went down to check on them, Pinky had a bloodied nose!!

I asked Pinky what happened but he didn’t want to talk about it. So i wet a piece of tissue with water & wiped the blood off his nose. He had a cut on his nose… probably got scratched by one of the others when he put his nose into their cage to kaypoh. Sigh. Guess Pinky had to learn the hard way that not everyone gives in to him like his mommy.

But Pinky’s fine. When i saw him this morning, he cleaned the wound very well. Couldn’t see any traces of blood on his nose though i could still see the cut. He’s also pretty brave… didn’t cower or anything even after he got injured. In fact, he barely flinched when i was cleaning his wound. Sigh… that arrogant bunny. Heh. Took some photos of Pinky but they didn’t turn out so nice… colours looked a little dull ‘cos taken at night. Shall post photos when i get some better shots of the little fella. 🙂