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"Mountain Tortoise"

No, am not referring to the terrapins i saw at the Botanical Gardens.  Was referring to myself.  Sigh… “sua gu” old me has not been to the Botanical Gdns since my first trip in secondary school.  The place is really beautiful now… and i shan’t bother to go into details since i’m probably the only person in Singapore who hasn’t been there in years.

Had coffee & a bit of makan there with NTU dear just now, then took a short walk since the weather was fantastic today.  Took a drive aruond Dempsey area too… love it.  Such an un-Singapore place.  🙂

During our chat just now, NTU dear asked why i said i feel like i’m old.  He says 28 is a perfectly ok age to be single.  So i thought i better qualify my statement here.  I don’t feel old as in “time is running out” old… but i do feel that i’ve played enough, had enough of drama mama times, and it’s time to have some roots in my life.

The rolling stone finally gathers moss?

Birthday Celebrations 2007

Yes!  Once again… *drum roll*… my birthday is coming!  Sigh.  This time, i REALLY feel old.  So i’m gonna be 28, am single, don’t think i’m ever going to settle down, but thank God i’m in my dream job with dream colleagues and dream bosses.  Woohoo!

So… the plan for this year starts.. TODAY!

(And i’m late for my first celebration already).

Meeting NTU dear in 26min for my first birthday makan session today, then i got the next 4 Sunday lunches booked with Chewbacca (yeah… he has owed me birthday lunch, dinner, breakfast, etc since 2002 and only paid back one), then come 15 May i’ll probably be having dinner with Iceman (and the people going for Phantom)…

Hey Iceman – are we celebrating on 15 May or another day?

On my birthday itself, 16 May, sigh.  Original plans were cancelled right?  SO, i asked my Singnet friends aka “The Complain Group” out for dinner.  Heehee… played the sympathy card and this is the fastest i’ve ever seen them respond to a dinner request.

17 May i’ll probably have dinner with my parents, then 18 May there’s a birthday bash with AKKK and friends.

That’s the plan so far…. any other takers?  Hehehe… please book your slots now.  ‘Cos i’ll be going for the Grasshoppers concert on 19 May, and will be in Manila from 21 to 26 May. 

Woohoo!

You Get What You Give

Finally met up with my cousin AKKK last night.  Was supposed to meet him for drinks last week but he got sloshed even before i was ready to step out of my house.  Went to O Bar last night and concluded that we were way too old (pun unintended) to be there.  I didn’t feel half as bad ‘cos i was the second youngest in the group so… heh.  Most of the others were in their mid 30s.

After O Bar, we went to this place called Air Lounge i think.  It’s just down the road from O Bar.  Really nice chill out place… saw quite a few japs there.  This is the pub that’s owned my cousin’s friend… some HK fella.  Think i might want to go back again with other friends.  Really nice.  🙂

I told my cousin about ONSer chatting me up.  My cousin immediately scolded me and told his friend Rubie about it, and Rubie opened his eyes wide and told me to STAY CLEAR of ONSer.  Rubie says ONSer is not like the typical player.  He knows how to bide his time and “tarik”… and strikes only after the gal has let her guard down. 

Wow.  Looks like the president of my fan base has a really bad rep.  Haha.  In the cab on the way home, my cousin made me promise him that i’ll never go out with ONSer.  So… too bad ONSer… i can only talk to u online.  Haha.  I always listen to the instructions of my favourite cousin (i’ve looked up to him since i was a kid ok!).  😛

Last night, the group was also waiting for this woman (anyone older than my cousin is a ‘woman’ vs ‘gal’) to join them.  She’s apparently depressed over marital woes and they were drinking at Boat Quay before they moved on to O Bar.  The woman said she wanted to go home to drop off her bag before meeting them at O Bar.  But she never turned up.  She went to Lido Palace instead.  Yeap.  Lido Palace as in the nightclub.  Don’t ask me what pleasure a woman might get out of a nightclub but yeah…. she was there.

After hearing her story, i was telling my cousin, what’s the point in holding onto something that’s over?  The memories are happy but if the current situation is causing only u pain, then u need to let go.  Happiness is a daily decision.  Oh well, i take it as a lesson/ reminder to open my eyes wide when it comes to dating, marriage, whatever.

Here’s a song i just dug up from my treasury.  Heehee.  Enjoy!

 

 

Wake up kids
we got the dreamers disease
Age 14 they got you down on your knees
Souls polite, we’re busy still saying please
Friendnemies, who, when you’re down ain’t your friend
Every night we smash their Mercedes-Benz
First we run; and then we laugh till we cry
But when the night is falling
and you cannot find the light, light
You feel your dreams are dying
Hold tight

Chorus:
You’ve got the music in you
Don’t let go
You’ve got the music in you
One dance left
This world is gonna pull through
Don’t give up
You’ve got a reason to live
Can’t forget
We only get what we give

I’m coming home baby
You’re tops, give it to me now
Four a.m. we ran a miracle mile
We’re flat broke but hey we do it in style
The bad rich
God’s flying in for your trial
But when the night is falling
You cannot find a friend, friend
You feel your tree is breaking
Just bend
(chorus)

This whole damn world can fall apart
It’ll be ok, follow your heart
You’re in harm’s way I’m right behind
Now say you’re mine
(chorus)

Don’t let go
I feel the music in you, you, you YOU!
Fly ……. high …….!
What lives ……. can’t die …….!
You only get what you give
You gonna get what you give
Don’t give up
Just don’t be afraid to live …….!

Health insurance rip off lying
FDA big bankers buying
Fake computer crashes dining
Cloning while they’re multiplying
Fashion shoots with Beck and Hanson
Courtney Love, and Marilyn Manson
You’re all fakes
Run to your mansions
Come around, we’ll kick your ass in!

Don’t let go
One dance left
Don’t give up
Can’t forget

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WARNING!!

Recently, i keep getting diverted to other people’s accounts in Imeem.  Think there’s some security problems with the site.  I’m still using it to host music ‘cos i’m not bothered if other people can use my music… but thought of letting everyone know in case u use it for more stuff.

Had a night out with the girls.  First time i’ve ever had a night out with a group of girls actually.  Most of my closer friends are guys, with the exception of Azure.  Had a lot of fun.  Started drinking at Eon Canteen about 8:30pm, then moved to Actors at Boat Quay.  Had lots of crazy fun.  Loved it.

Starting to appreciate my colleagues more and more.  In the past, whenever i met any relationship problems, i tend to keep them to myself.  Seldom would i express how i feel… and when the pain grows from having been bottled up, occassionally, (i think only once actually), i may call Iceman and cry over the phone.

The difference about sharing your woes with guys and gals is that guys tend to try to offer a solution… which is really quite redundant ‘cos no one will know the situation/ solution better than the parties involved in the problem.  Gals however, will just listen to you, empathise, and the focus is on providing support.

It is only through this latest dent in my rainbow that i learnt that the true meaning of “a problem shared is a problem halved”.  Thank you gals.  🙂

I think i’m about 95% recovered now.  Amazing speed of recovery u may say.  Haha.  No wonder it was reported recently that Singaporeans are the faster walkers worldwide.  We move on, fast.

Oh What Do You Get…

Just found out that my good friend, who got married in 2005, has marital problems now and her husband volunteered to go to the US for a 2-year posting. I don’t understand why he did that. Shouldn’t he stay to try to work things out? My friend and her son have now shifted back to stay with her mom so that her mom can take care of the baby when my friend’s working.

I’m very disillusioned about relationships and marriage now. I’m not sad about my own problems per se (am quite over it actually), but everything that has happened only adds to my cynicism. I don’t like escapist attitudes.

Olive Balls

Extended an olive branch today. Rang HD at about 3pm to see if he wanted to go for kopi. Said he was in the middle of something, and maybe we could meet at 4pm instead. But at 3:05pm, i decided that i was going to go ahead with my kopi break so i called Katrine to see if she could make it for a “couselling session”.

Dropped HD an email to tell him that i was going down without him and left. Had a good chat with Katrine. Hehe. It’s been some time since i’ve met her for kopi and she is really my original kopi buddy. 😛

After i got back to office, i got an sms from HD at 4:10pm saying that he was “really swamped with work” this week, and “next week k?”.

I replied saying i already had my kopi and didn’t he get my email??

Well, i’ve extended my olive branch. Friend or not, ball’s in your court, dude.

This Time Next Year

 

 

Today was a tough day for me.  Some habits are hard to break.  The toughest time of the day was about 3pm+… when i yearned to meet HD for a fruit juice break.  Actually, even tougher than getting through the afternoon teabreak time, is to admit that i had a tough time.  Because i am a proud person.  I don’t like to admit vulnerability.  I don’t like to appear weak. 

But i got through today.  I went down to buy my usual orange+carrot juice, just like i used to do before i got to know HD.  It’s ok.  Things will only get better. 

About 6pm, i managed to activate a group of colleagues to go for drinks at Eon Canteen… and the group grew… there were like 12 of us at one time and we had a real good time just chatting, talking cock, and enjoying our drinks.  Would have drunk more but my colleagues decided it was time to leave about 10:15pm.  I had 3 gin tonics and 1 hoegarden – barely enough to quench my thirst.  Strangely, nowadays i drink better on an empty stomach.  I was most touched when the 2 colleagues that i drink with regularly, WC and YL lent me their ears (even though it was just a quick sharing of woes), and drank with me.  Cheers gals! 

During our drinking session, someone mentioned that i’m getting more and more similar to my boss.  Actually i’ve noticed that for some time… and because of that, i know if i apply myself and am serious in my work, this job will offer me a lot of opportunities career-wise.  My big boss told me that i’ll need  to grease the PR machine when i’m in Manila later this month… and i will.  Don’t ask me why but i’m always at my most PR when i’m feeling shitty inside.  Hah.

This year, i bought the N95 as my own birthday present.  I admit, i am disappointed ‘cos HD said b4 that he was going to celebrate my birthday with me this year.  But it’s ok.  I won’t go subterranean.

In fact, i have ambitious plans.  This time next year, i want to repeat the same percentage increase in my pay, as well as garner a promotion, and i shall buy myself a new car!

So that’s the plan.  Ambitious, but achievable.  A new girl joined our company today.  She’s tall, very slim, and has long wavy hair too.  A colleague of mine remarked, “Competition!”.  Haha.  My response was, “If you don’t compare, you won’t know what’s good.”

There.  I’ve said it all out.  Hence i will do it.

Hilda Went Home

 

 

Farewell shot of Patience and Hilda.

 

 

 

Hilda went home this evening.  Sent her to birdland.  She was quite happy to be home i suppose… though she enjoyed the excursion to bunnyland. 

Managed to talk to HD too.  Need to spare him some privacy lah so details aside, conclusion is we’re just going to remain friends. 

P.S. I’m usually at Balaclava on Thursdays and i lurve Hoegarden… 😉

VIP Pass Expired

I guess my VIP Pass expired.  Supposed to meet HD at Rail Mall at 6ish later… and he said “but it’s damn far for you”.  Wow.  After ALL our film ed nites at birdland, Rail Mall is too far now?  Since when did we go back to all this courteous small talk?

Never really spoke to anyone from church about HD and me… whatever they know, would be whatever they read from this blog.  Which really contains snippets of what has transpired and not the full details.  Sigh.  Finally decided to tell Chewbacca about it.  Chewbacca is good ‘cos he’s such a nice person and he always helps me put things into perspective. 

Chewbacca asked if there was really something going on between us… or was it just my perception.  Without me listing all my “members’ privileges” here, i can only say that it’s definitely not my own perception.  Anyhow, the conclusion i got from our sms conversation is that i should have spoken to HD about us much earlier.  Since nothing was ever verbalised, who can fault the other?

Sad truth huh?  It’s like having your season parking lot taken away from you ‘cos management decided not to let you renew it and next thing you know, your car’s out on the road.

Choice was mine, consequences are mine too.  The reason why i did not want to talk about the issue earlier was ‘cos i was afraid it was premature to talk about things and i would put too much pressure on it and ruin everything.  Now, i guess all the steam’s lost.

Hope HD doesn’t back out of meeting up.  Sorry, let me re-phrase that.  I hope the rx8 doesn’t decide to back out.

And don’t call me CG anymore.  That name only comes with the holder of a VIP Pass.

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Oops… just realised i never explained what “VIP Pass” means.  Well, Iceman would know about this best.  Once, after golf or tennis i don’t remember but Iceman and Mr. Abandoned adjourned to HD’s place for fruits after dinner.  They started hanging around and nua-ing and HD completely ignored them and started doing his own stuff.

Next thing i knew, i got an sms from HD saying “get the hint!” ‘cos he was giving them a black face and ignoring them totally but they were not budging.

I then asked HD what would he do if i were to overstay my welcome one day.  He said he would never throw me out of birdland and even if he wanted to, he would have to sms me, to tell me to get out.  Sigh.  Yeap.  That was my VIP PasT.

But all good things must come to an end.

Serial Liar?

Wanted to post this last night but i fell asleep.

Got an sms at 1:42am from J-san.  Said he just got back from Union Square and that his salsa sucked.

I replied saying that Cass from Eon Canteen says hi.  J-san went, “Oh u mean she’s back from overseas?”

I told him, “Don’t bluff.  Cass said u contacted her already.”

Of ‘cos he held his stand about not knowing and said things like, “Maybe i should give her a call and ask her to come to my place.”

Duh.

This isn’t the first time i’ve called his bluff.  A few times before, when he complained that another gal in the office, Cynful, was “harassing” him, i also found out from Cynful that he had been sms-ing her to find out more about Cynful’s friend?!

Desperado.

Also heard that he made off with some Vietnamese chick after a group of colleagues went clubbing on the Sunday night we were in Ho Chi Minh.  Yes, yes, he’s single, he can do what he wants, it’s not my position to judge.

But combined with all this lying, it says a lot about a person’s character, no?




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